Not again!

[azekeil]

In my rush yesterday evening to buy the new game, it appears my wallet fell out of my pocket once again as I got into my car. Apparently it has been handed in but I'll have to wait until tomorrow to find out exactly where it's gone.

What surprised me was the deep feelings of inadequacy and depression I felt at what is in all actuality a small event with (usually) little consequence*. But the meaning to me was one of failure; if I can't even keep a wallet about my person what hope do I have?

I purposely got a wallet with a chain to attach to a belt loop so it would be harder to lose it. But in my rush I didn't do that, and it must have been the rush that caused me to be careless.

I knew it was silly as I was feeling it, that I was feeling low and also irritable, so I took myself off to my darkened room. This is quite unlike me. But through it all I maintained a sense of perspective.

Now I feel quite OK, especially now I know it's been found, so I can stop looking for it. And once I was over the worst of it, a beer also helps :)

* After losing my wallet so many times before, my wallet now usually only contains a small amount of cash and two cards from the same bank in it.

Comments

[sepheri.livejournal.com]

if I can't even keep a wallet about my person what hope do I have?

Funny that, I've been feeling similar this week. Nothing so big, just a general feeling of "why can't I get things right all the time.

I have been musing today on the way my flist seems to have general themes. Sometimes there are lots of people having a bad night's sleep, sometimes there are many of us feeling low etc. I and I was wondering what causes this? The weather would be a convenient thing to blame if there weren't so many people in different countries. Perhaps it is the seasons since there is only one person I know on the other side of the equator. Or what...the stars? I'm not sure how much I do or don't believe in astrology.
Anyway, I am just wittering (I may have had a drink too).
I love having friends like you :)

[sarah-mum.livejournal.com]

I think it's like horoscopes, you identify with the bits that you want to identify with. Also, the human brain loves patterns, so sees them even when they aren't there.

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

:P~~~

[sepheri.livejournal.com]

That is also true. I have been wondering about that a lot too.

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

Glad I can make you feel less isolated in your feeling crap. Not that you are crap at all in the slightest. Far from it. I may have had a drink as well ;)

[sepheri.livejournal.com]

Indeed, and neither are you. We all feel like it sometimes though I suppose.
Oops, I drank a bit much ;)

[sarah-mum.livejournal.com]

Alex, you clearly need a Manbag(TM) or zipped pockets.

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

What I need is a pot of superglue...

[nemy.livejournal.com]

Or a chip under the skin. Paying for things at the supermarket could involve head butting the checkout........or the checkout assistant. Which ever makes you feel better.

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I heard that they were mooting that. I could see head implants being popular in Glasgow... ;)

[serena-lesley.livejournal.com]

Believe it or not, He has a manbag (which he wasn't using) and this particular wallet has a chain. What he needs is a Prince Albert piercing (Not Work Safe) to attach the chain to...

[kelemvor.livejournal.com]

That could make paying for a round in the pub interesting...

[theeighth.livejournal.com]

OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH
Noooooooooooooooooo. I'm wincing just at the thought. Imagine catching the chain on something...

Actually, wait it's not me, so yeah, go for it ^_^
Rule 1 - if it's funny, do it.
Rule 2 - if it's not funny, keep doing it till it is funny.

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

Yes this always amuses kissycat1000 too :/

[theeighth.livejournal.com]

Hmm... must stop encouraging people using rule1...

[sepheri.livejournal.com]

I'll get your wallet then!

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

*raises eyebrow*

Now I know you've had a bit to drink! ;)

[sepheri.livejournal.com]

Oops *ggl*

[beeby.livejournal.com]

I hate to be feeble but I thought I'd lost my purse the other day and the feelings of panic were out of all proportion although I do keep cards worth quite a bit plus sometimes a fair bit of cash. Anyway after rampaging round all the shops I'd visited and being treated with lots of concern by the shop girls I remembered I might have left in the Waitrose shopping bag left in the car which is where it was so no harm done. My God though the panic - it was really life threatening - what's is all this - not being in control?

[malcygoff.livejournal.com]

recently, I've had a similar problem with my mobile phone - I think I've left it lying around places about twice a week for the last two months and actually lost it (only to recover it from where it's been handed in) at least twice in the same period.

I feel that things get to the stage where they just don't want to be owned any more.

Although, more importantly, the way that some things that -by all rights- should be quite small and insignificant can actually be very involving and emotionally strained constantly confuses me. I've often just presumed it was the cumalitive affect of me being unable to deal with the stresses of my life, but it seems it's not just me that suffers from it. This is probably a good thing for me!